I only had an abortion a few weeks ago and I'm not quite sure how I feel about it still. To read everything and find out about everything to do with abortion has sort of become an obsession of mine.

I'm only a 19 year old female, and became pregnant through a one-night stand. It's strange to look in the mirror and say "you were actually pregnant," and I think about what it would be like to hold my own baby and to watch it grow. The main thing that stops me from feeling so guilty about the abortion is to try and make my mind believe that it was only a bunch of cells and nothing else....but I have to wonder why there was such a huge emptiness after the abortion.

It still doesn't seem like reality to me. I thought I was the last person that would have to go through this kind of thing. I had proper sex education, and talked about everything with my mum.....this is the only thing that she doesn't know about me.

I have this fear of this haunting me for the rest of my life, and I know that if I ever do have a child I will realize what I have done.