After 2 weeks I have decided to get post abortion syndrome counseling. When I went to volunteer at a pro-life phone center, I broke down and started crying. I told them my story and they referred me to a really good place to go for free.

I understand that some people say that post abortion syndrom doesn't exist, well I know it does. I just wish that in my not clear thinking stages someone would have shown/talked about the whole thing. I'm not blaming anyone, but I am sad to find out that all three of my sisters had an abortion and even though I didn't mention it to them that I even thought of it, they didn't try and discuss it with me. I know it is painful to talk about, but if I come across someone in the future who is in a crisis pregnancy, I hope I will find the strength from God to make sure they know the full truth about the fetal growth (baby growth) and abortion in a compassionate way - at an abortion alternative clinic, of course.

I don't think a center should be able to give free pregnancy testing unless they are willing to talk about all the options involved instead of just escorting them to the street after it turns out positive (which is what happened to me at my first pregnancy testing that came out positive).

I feel a little more at peace after reading someone else's storywhere she said that she could not forgive herself, which is where I was, and someone told her that God is the one to forgive, and I finally was able to accept His forgiveness.

I will never accept the abortion as something that I had to do had I had stronger faith, but I know I must come to terms with it which I am doing more so now.

Every time I see a baby/child that is an affirmation to be abstinent until the right man comes along.